As I lay there at night, listening to the rain.
Talking to my heart and trying to explain.
Why sometimes I catch myself wondering what might have been.
Yes I do think about you every now and then.

dude!  enough of all the love, heartbreak + deep crap. i'm a teenager and i use words such as 'like' and 'babe' in almost every sentance. i'm fed up of feeling so depressed and cliche all the time. i guess i'm gonna change direction & turn into a completely different cliche. today, i joined the school show :') i went with my friends and sung my heart out. then on the way home i met this maaaajor sexy boy from this private school, who walks that way on wednesdays. yeah he's like four years older;L but he's a funny one + proper cheered me up. no, i'm not over him, and i guess thats just life. because even though i thought he was so, so different then anyone else i know, i suppose thats gonna change as i fall out of love with him. aaargghhh just talking about him makes my head hurt. well i'm off to go watch the inbetweeners & doodle on my pse book. life's good. taraa:')

do you ever think, perhaps, the universe we could be living in, is simply a brain cell to another living creature? maybe this huge scary world isn't so big after all.

it makes me so angry to know that i can't control how i feel about someone. i want to move on. but truth is, there's nobody else like you. i would never let you see this, because even though your the only person i've ever, ever let in, i couldn't do that to myself. that would mean  you would know the things about me, that makes me want to scream, these things keep me up every night, curled up in a ball, eyes scrunched shut, holding onto my pillow so tight i can't feel my fingers. these things that make me cry. i hate what you've done to me, i hate it. it's the little things, i saw your brother the other day. he was walking down the path infront of me, just staring at me with those eyes you share, i couldn't concentrate on what i was saying, i wanted to break down. my knee's went weak and all i could see was you in my head, saying you wern't ready to love. i should move on. i can't mention your name. i have to let you go, and i can't wait for the day i can say i fucked off, i moved on, and i'm over you. but right now that's kinda impossible. i burned every bridge i ever built when you were here.